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Sorry I haven't been online for two days.. I got into a pretty bad fight with Heidi Monday morning and she's been acting weird ever since. And by fight, I mean punching and slapping and receiving a pretty little bloody nose from Heidi.. Yeah- here's what happened: I overslept. It wasn't my fault. Heidi had gotten weird the night before and ripped my alarm out of the wall so I had no way of waking myself up. Heidi was angry, but insisted on driving me to school.. We were both arguing about court and we both aren't morning people.. She was driving down the road and just decides that she wants to kill me.. So- in the long run, she got all violet and the car was swerving all over the road and wow.. Can you imagine what the person behind us thought? It's just like.. If you wanna fight- don't do it when you're in the car!
I have officially given up on math. It made me relax a bit more since I don't need to worry about it now. My other grades are falling though. I'm not getting enough sleep, but what the heck- I never do. I am surviving on three hours of sleep a night and that's good enough to stay awake.
Isn't it cold out today? Well- it's windy anyway and you know how I don't like the wind.
I had a dream Mr. Gillette took the class on a road trip. Everyone had such a wonderful time. They were all laughing and Mr. Gillette really looked happy and he almost never looks completely happy. Then, when we got back- there it was again, I wasn't clothed! I keep having these dreams like that.. I'll be clothed in the beginning, in the middle I won't be, and then at the end I'll be clothed again..
I have officially given up on math. It made me relax a bit more since I don't need to worry about it now. My other grades are falling though. I'm not getting enough sleep, but what the heck- I never do. I am surviving on three hours of sleep a night and that's good enough to stay awake.
Isn't it cold out today? Well- it's windy anyway and you know how I don't like the wind.
I had a dream Mr. Gillette took the class on a road trip. Everyone had such a wonderful time. They were all laughing and Mr. Gillette really looked happy and he almost never looks completely happy. Then, when we got back- there it was again, I wasn't clothed! I keep having these dreams like that.. I'll be clothed in the beginning, in the middle I won't be, and then at the end I'll be clothed again..
Whaa?
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Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.
1.) Your name? --Meghan
that girl you see with all the guys around her. Deffinatally a head turner. Probably known as the "hottie" of the school. guys lover her, girls envey her
2.) Your age? --15
Any girl under eighteen who lies about her age. Closley related to the term jailbait but more devious.
3.) One of your friends? Yuki
Japanese word for snow
4.) What should you be doing? Chaning
Synonym for masturbation.
5.) Favorite color? --Blue
The hue of the portion of the visible spectrum lying
I miss myself
Relationship issues.. Blah. x.x Makes me want to kill myself. I'll be okay though.. I can only hope. Eating is going much better and so has the cutting. Couldn't sleep.. panic attacks.. Odd dreams..
I'm hurting...
I miss myself.
Always stand up straight
Well.. It's been a while since I've posted on here. Sorry about not posting.. although I doubt anyone really cares.
I feel sick and dizzy... and everything hurts.. Gah. x.x I want to crawl into a corner and cry.
Why do I keep getting so cold? I've gained weight.. I shouldn't be this cold. And then I'll wake up in the middle of the night with these horrible night sweats.
I keep having dizzy spells.. and the hallucinations are still here. Everything is still the same.
Ow.. Why am I in so much pain today?
Gah.. I feel so horrible. I'm so tired and I can't sleep.. and have so much work to do.. and so many things to study.
I want to give up.
You don't understand
My father cannot understand. He cannot deal with my eating disorder that way he should. All he does is yell at me, demanding to know why I "want to starve myself." He weighs me all the time now and makes me drink ensure two times a day. (500 fucking calories) and makes me eat at least three meals at the table every single day and watches me... I hate it. Last night, he watched me eat dinner and got angry. "This is NOT HARD! NORMAL people sit down and EAT a meal. That's what NORMAL people do! EAT your FOOD!"
I wanted to cry... I'd place a bean on my fork and force myself to eat it... I was trying and all he did was yell at me. He doesn't unde
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I had a dream..
That I jsut ofrgot. >_o
That I jsut ofrgot. >_o